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Accidental Smutting

So, I used to write smut with no problem. It was just a general part of my playing with one character in particular. Somewhere down the line I just stopped playing smut for a long time except for randomly with another female player friend of mine and even that was few and far between. In other words: I’ve just lost my zest for smut.

Sad face, but it happens! I’m happy playing without it. It’s honestly just a little bit awkward for me now. But no time has been more awkward than the last time I -quite literally- accidentally smutted with my closest male friend.

My last photoset featured my main female OC, Finnley West (Emma Watson) and while she is now on the verge of this relationship with Tony Stark, there was a brief foray into romance with another boy before: Marx LeBeau (I’ll post a picture of him at some point soon. He’s pretty… and freaking Gambits kid!).

Marx is played -like I said before- by my closest male friend. Marx and Fin ended up sleeping together. Usually we would have just faded to black like normal people who don’t play smut - but there is a general rule that when it is important it should be played through. This happened to be Marx losing his virginity so we were stuck having to do SOMETHING.

Did I mention that Marx’s player - in addition to being my closest male friend irl - also happens to be the best friend of my ex-fiancee AND the older brother of a guy I kind of dated? The ties… they’re just too close.

Oh, also Marx’s player had never written smut before.

It was shaping up to be something truly awkard.

So we tried to prepare ourselves. Attempted to really suss this out before diving head first into this.

We came up with a BRILLIANT plan. We were going to gloss over it. You know, we weren’t just going to completely fade to black, but we were going to do approximately a post each and it would be all frosty-frames and warm glowing glowy-glows like a bad rom-com that allots too much of its budget for the inconsequential sex scenes.

Hooray! Problem solved!

Usually when I do a lovely glossy-gloss (or even a fade to black) I play through 99% of the foreplay and at least get the characters to the naked point. So it’s smutty ENOUGH without playing through actual penetration and all that messy, sticky oh-so-good sexytimes.

Also, usually I’m good at separating myself from the character and the other player, but Marx’s player and I have known each other WAY too long for this to be a possibility. Not to mention our characters are so well developed that they have minds of their own, so it was like we were just being taken for a ride by our hormonally driven characters. Meanwhile - while they’re doing their heavy petting and getting properly frisky - Marx’s player and I are doing this face D: NO ME GUSTA.

I wish it had stopped there. I really, really do.

What had started out as a plan to gloss prettily over the sex scenes was rapidly become more and more detailed, and despite the fact that this was Marx losing his virginity there was an unexpected amount of attention to my female - and an even more unexpected amount of detail from Marx’s player.

The whole time we were texting OOC back and forth, with phrases like “Oh god. Make it stop. I CAN’T STOP HIM. I NEED AN ADULT.”

Too much. Too detailed. The characters were having far too much fun with each other.

And then - finally - the sex ended. It made sense, Marx was a virgin, homeboy didn’t last THAT long. We thought we were safe. I thought it was over. And then I get a text…

“Oh god. Why does Marx have to be such a goddamned gentleman? FUCK MY LIFE.”

Apparently Marx wanted to make sure that Fin got what she wanted. In vivid detail.

And that’s the story of how I managed to accidentally fall into smutting with my closest male friend. And subsequently made things pretty awkward for a night.

Quick Question - Regarding Sues

So there are Mary Sues, and Angsty Sues… but my question is - Is there a term for female characters that are essentially Sues, but are overwhelmingly slut-tastic?

In case you didn't know - I have an RP term dictionary!

• Me to Roommate: What are you doing?
• Roommate to me: Tumbling RDJ because I have no life.
• In a really proper British accent.
• Now, let me set the scene for you. Roommate is actually laying face-down on her un-made bed, in a tanktop and underwear while sort of pawing at her touch-pad and intermittently fondling her mattress topper.
• This is my life.

Roleplay Resources: PBs!

Before I start this post, I figure I might as well give everyone a definition of a PB because I know there are questions!

PB: Play-By or Played-By, is the face (actor, actress, musician, model, etc) used to represent the physical form of your character. Think of it this way: If your RP was made into a movie, the PB you use is who you would probably cast as your character physically speaking. (ex: I love her character, but I forget the name of her PB, I think it’s Cat Dennings. Super cute.)

There is also a shorter version of that definition up top in my Roleplay Term Dictionary! Go ahead and click. Whatever you do, just stop bugging FYeahRoleplayingRabbit about it.

Alright, anyone who uses PBs in their playing knows what a hassle it can be to find a decent one and downright torturous to find that perfect one, so I’m here to soothe some of the pain. Handing off just a few sites that might help you, like they’ve always helped me. Here ya go:

www.bellazon.com

It’s a really great source if you know exactly who you are looking for, or have a lot of time on your hands to sift through all of the threads. Luckily they have it separated between men and women, and even further they have threads that separate musicians, models, athletes, actors/actresses, and other people of interest. It can be time consuming but WORTH IT.

http://www.hollow-art.com

Hollow Art is really brilliant if you have only a vague idea of a PB, or are ready to sift through things and have a good search. My favorite thing about Hollow Art is that there are tags to search by like age groups, ethnicity, eye color, hair color etc

http://burlesque-show.livejournal.com/

Simply lovely. Both Burlesque and Hollow Art are great resources particularly if you use icon-based RPing like insanejournal, livejournal, AIM, etc. Just remember to give proper credit!

So that’s it for now. I know that there are a bunch of other resources out there, and I’ll update this PB list periodically, but this was just a quick 3 that I use on an astoundingly regular basis.

Happy Playing!

*UPDATE!*  One of my lovely friends just passed on this BRILLIANT resource to me! So here you go!

http://www.insanejournal.com/tools/memories.bml?user=wikicon

Head Canon Field Trip Part One: Loki

Since I’ve been talking so much about Tom Hiddleston, I think perhaps it’s only fitting that my first foray into talking about my own playing/head canon is a brief introduction to the Loki that I write. Are you deliriously excited? Yes?

Just as I suspected.

Meet my Loki!:

I figure instead of just beating you in the face with my Loki’s history and all that jazz, I’ll give you guys a quick basic stats of him for those of you who don’t care, and then an extended explanation of him behind a cut! I’m pretty genius. It’s okay.

Name: Loki Laufeyson

Alias(es): Ian Loki

Age: Immortal but on earth claims the age 32

Current Location: New York City

Sexual Orientation: Gay

Current Occupation: CFO of Leiber Incorporated

Quirks/Special Characteristics: Distinctive soft giggle when (often) amused/ incurable sweet tooth

Talents: Illusions, Persuasion, Voluntary Invisibility, General Trickery

Body Mods/Tattoos: The Loki I play has five tattoos. One being the Nordic compass off to the right of and just below his bellybutton, he has the word “Valor” in runes on the underside of his left wrist, there is a band around the top of his right forearm with runes inside denoting an oath of honor to protect Asgard and the outlying worlds. He has a Valknut on his upper left bicep, and on his back he has a set of Valkyrie wings. Traditionally speaking Valkyries are depicted as women, however the allure for Loki to the wings is that one of the purposes of the Valkyrie is that they fly above a battle and choose who is slain and the outcome of the fight. Since Loki is generally seen as inferior in combat (and he tends to fight from afar, and use trickery) he has the Valkyrie wings to sort of represent the fact that he feels/wants to put off the idea that he is so many steps ahead of the enemy that he essentially chooses who falls.

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Time Out: Hiddleston Rant

(Or more accurately: How Tom Hiddleston Blew Up The Internet)

Originally I was going to spend this weekend giving you guys some awesome Roleplaying and Photoshop resources, but this was brought to my attention and I couldn’t let it go. You will be returned to your normally scheduled I, Roleplayer shortly, promise.

Okay, so usually I stay out of fandom stuff (because you lot are INSANE.) but this caught my attention and it’s been ticking at the back of my cranium and bugging me for days, so I have to say something.

Besides, I write for a Loki, so tumbling Hiddleston makes it an unavoidable issue.

So… apparently Tom Hiddelston exploded the internet about two weeks ago and no one told me (or at the very least I just didn’t notice). Generally speaking I don’t poke my head into celeb-related things but the douchebaggery that has taken place in the wake of “all of this” is/was astronomical and I simply can’t ignore it.

I guess Tom Hiddleston is married?

Wait, I shouldn’t have phrased that as a question.

Tom Hiddleston = SUPER MARRIED.

I think it’s pretty rad. Marriage rocks. At least I assume it does, I wouldn’t know first-hand as I am unwed.

APPARENTLY, not everyone shares my sentiment on this subject. From what I understand (and read/was ranted to about) people have been LIVID with Hiddleston about the whole thing. Tearing him apart for “keeping her a secret” and basically staging a mass exodus of the fandom.

Because homeboy is married.

This honestly goes beyond the fact that we’re talking about Tom Hiddleston. This really has nothing to do with him in particular, this was just an excellent example of something that really bothers me on a human level (Thanks for being married and having psychotic fans, Hiddleston! I guess? That doesn’t sound right.).

All snarkiness aside: I guess I just don’t understand a lot of fan craziness. People becoming so obsessed (and I do really mean obsessed) with someone who is altogether a perfect stranger. I really don’t understand why anyone would want to be famous with the way we treat celebrities at this point. Fans are acting like they own these people, and like they’re owed something. So Tom Hiddleston didn’t come out going “Guess what guys? I’M TOTALLY MARRIED. LULZ.” Who cares? Are people really so delusional to believe that they are owed some sort of explanation? Is it too much to ask for him to be afforded some semblance of a personal life?

I don’t understand why people are getting so butthurt over this. I honest-to-God came across people acting like the world has been lied to, and there is no point in existing in the fandom because this dude is married.

Maybe I’m an idiot, but the reasoning legitimately does not compute with me.

Is Hiddleston handsome? Absolutely. Is he charming, intelligent and well natured? He seems to be. He’s also a stunningly talented actor who seems to genuinely love his craft. Maybe it’s just the side of me that was raised with a passion for stage theater and acting as a whole, but isn’t his talent the reason we’re supposed to enjoy him?

He seems to all around be a lovely chap. Like I said, he is absolutely handsome, and I’ll admit that I’ve made off-handed comments on occasion about errant thoughts of climbing him like a tree, but I’m not about to carve the mans name in my arm and declare myself his.

It genuinely makes me sad that these days I am in the minority, because so many other people become so possessive of public figures. I liked using Tumblr as a resource to collect pictures, but scrolling through his tag turned my stomach and this kind of idiocy even more so.

And honestly, the part of me that is a hardcore marvel fan, and has been reading the comics for years is just straight up utterly and hopelessly bemused. What really gets me is that 90% (if not more) of these fans/crazy people have never picked up a goddamned Marvel comic in their life.

I just don’t understand any of this.

tl;dr : People need to cool their jets and stop drinking the kool aid. Get the pickles out of your booties and take a deep breath and step away from the celeb/fandom craziness. And if you’re only into Marvel because the boys are pretty then you can kindly GTFO of the fandom. Good riddance to bad rubbish.

How I Got To The Party

Firstly, ten points to whoever gets the title reference.

I’ve been sort of agonizing over how to start this whole “I, Roleplayer” brain-child that has been jumping about in my sub-cranium. I thought about just posting a bunch of RP resources, but that sounded kind of boring and everyone would be confused when I started posting other things/photoshop magic; then I thought about jumping in with a really odd/in-depth description of my current head-canon but that sounded possibly even more boring. So I figured… Why not just tell you guys the short story of how I even started on this crazy adventure that is roleplay. My experiences have been anything but graceful, I promise.

But it wouldn’t really be interesting if I was a Mary-Sue, right? (Crap, I should add that term to my dictionary.)

I’ve told the story of how I started playing dozens of times, and it wasn’t until (literally) today as I was coming home from work that I realized I’d been lying this whole time. Unintentionally, of course.

The truth is, my first written roleplay experience was on a hanson.net forum. Giggle all you want but that is my secret shame. Someone started a new topic that was something like “Party at the Hanson Hotel!” At which point there was a substantial amount of liberal astric use and questionably rape-y scenarios. I don’t really consider this my actual start though.

I made my first conscious decision to roleplay about five and a half years ago, when I was sixteen (for those of you playing at home, that makes me 21). I was fluttering about myspace and happened into an x-men discussion forum.

Wait. Ah crap. I’m not doing this right. I should have started with other facts… Too late now!

So I went into an x-men discussion forum and chatted with various other fans. And then in walks Colossus. That is to say, a roleplayer playing a Piotr Rasputin posted to the thread. I was immediately intrigued, we messaged back and forth. Since Colossus was (no longer is) one of my favorite X-men characters at the time, I routinely trolled his myspace page and saw the sea of other X-men and X-men based characters. I freaking love X-men. I continued to chat, asked about RP, and then decided that I wanted to try.

Colossus would be MINE.

Or, my characters, or something. Whatever.

Thusly was born my first character (screw you, Firefox, I don’t care if Thusly is actually a word or not, I’m USING IT), Saidi Chinara.

I’m proud to say that five and half years later she is still one of my active mains. I’ve built an entire world around her. Saidi has been the cause of some of the lowest and the highest points in my life. She brought me friends, brought me love, and has lost me both as well.

At this moment as I am sitting here writing this to you (the internet, TumBeasts, ladies, jellyspoons, warlocks, timelords), Saidi brought me to my current roommate.

Saidi, Roleplaying, ‘the game’, hasn’t just been an escape from the day to day clutter, or a creative outlet. I can honestly say that through various channels it has profoundly affected the course of my life.

Huh, turns out that wasn’t all that short afterall…

Oops?

Happy Playing.

I guess before I start really doing anything with this blog, I should give any possible viewers a brief overview of what you might find in the following posts. So in a nutshell, here is what I, Roleplayer will be:

• General roleplaying resources
• Insights and thoughts on ‘the game’ and things we’ve all experienced
• Random snippets of hilarity
• Roleplay related anecdotes
• Fandom silliness
• Photoshop Tutorials
• Snippets of my head canon
• A possibly too-honest account of my experience of ‘the game’ and how it has affected my life.

I think that’s about it. Oh… and Internet Memes. For the lulz.